Monday, August 23, 2010

Blessings for late August 2010


Her name is baby K...
And on Saturday, it's as though she showed me the way...

At a full 18 months old...
She is almost 7 months younger than my girl...
(there goes that lucky 7 again)...

And although we started the day as strangers...
K has become a close friend...

She is the daughter...
Of a friend of Ella's uncle D...
And a daddy's girl to boot...

Sporting blond hair and blue eyes...
She could not be further apart...
From my own baby girl...
From my angel...

And that is probably why...
I was able to so openly...
And so carefully..
Without a care in the world...
Spend quite a bit of time...
Getting to know baby K...

As she sang...
And danced....
And talked...
Blew kisses...
And bubbles too...

At aunty Trish...
And at her dad...

As we spent the day...
Getting acquainted...
Baby K...
Helped me feel whole...
Again...

Her breath so calculated...
Her hands so soft...
Her smile so bright...
She is one little determined little girl...

And after a day full day...
Spent so preciously being a toddler...
Baby K fell asleep...
For the 2nd time...
As I took her out for a stroll...

Far from the noise...
Far from the crowd...
On the quiet streets...
So that I could hear her...

Breathe...
Talk...
Sing...
And just be...
Baby K...

Blessings to you Baby K...
For helping me figure out again where my heart is...
And where it belongs...

Blessings to you...
And your family...

Blessing for D & Z...
And their lovely family...
For taking such good care of me...
For their friendship...
And for helping me through tough days...

Blessings for a busy weekend...
Spent outside being carefree...
And for good cries when I needed them...

Blessing to new friendships...
Laughter...
And smiles...

Blessing for uncle D & R...
For being so generous...
And weaving in...
Ella's mission...
Into Baru's anniversary...

Blessings for such a lovely weekend...
Spent doing a lot of nothing...
And recharging my heart...
For yet another day...

ELLA - Everyone Loves Little Angels

Sunday, August 15, 2010

I Carry You In My Heart by E E Cummings


‎2 years ago on Aug. 14
I was due to welcome
Ella in this world.

Instead I am left
Celebrating the life of an angel
My angel,
Ella

Tonight, on August 14,
I came across
this amazing poem
I will share it with you.

I Carry You In My Heart by E E Cummings

I carry your heart with me
(I carry it in my heart)
I am never without it
(anywhere I go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)

I fear no fate
(for you are my fate, my sweet)
I want no world
(for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart
(I carry it in my heart)

ELLA - Everyone Loves Little Angels